SINGING

2011-05-06T20:42:00.001+08:00

Hello Liam, Jonathan and Ben!!!

And Ben (again), Ralph, Alex, Matthew and Jakob!

Hello Daniel and Jakob!

pictures from here

why did you choose me?

2011-03-31T20:48:00.000+08:00

2PM's Thank You.

Probably one of my fave songs from the group. I chose this video because there's English translations and I thought it'd be best since not everyone understands Korean :-)

this way

2011-03-30T21:57:00.000+08:00

Maria Aragon

Amazing, amazing vocals ♥

coming home

2011-03-30T21:50:00.001+08:00

pictures from here.

Hi, haven't seen you in a while ♥

and you wish

2010-12-27T04:14:00.001+08:00

I LOVE YOU LIBERA ♥ This is such a cute video, I keep replaying it over and over and over again! Did you guys see Kavana pouncing on Sam at the end, that's utterly priceless lol. And Mini James and his cute voice and Daniel and Ralph in the beginning. Oh and the part when Stefan suddenly jumped out and then the rest of Libera dispersing lol.... And then Josh just coolly popping some food in his mouth and walking like a boss... I love every bit of this video!!

It's late, but I hope everyone had a good Christmas + holidays!

maybe today

2010-12-22T01:45:00.003+08:00

Kavana seems so lively :) And the rest of them are all so.... and Josh. It's so good to know he's still in Libera ♥ His voice is so deep now! And I love how Mini James is talking so much, he's such a cutie :) OMG AND THAT THING JOSH USED TO GIVE THEM THEIR PITCH. I saw Xiuhui used it before when we did our sectionals, why am I so excited about this tons of other people use it -.-

Ralph, you sound stunning. Libera's just amazing.

Nice to see you again, Libera ♥

eternal light

2010-11-22T18:23:00.000+08:00

I ♥ you, Libera!

different days

2010-11-06T19:50:00.002+08:00

Real sorry for the lack of updates, having two blogs is just... hard. ANYWAY,

Lol Kavana's 'LEEDS UNITED'!

Ah, love the live singing in some parts of the video. Stefan's just stunning in Salva Me and Daniel's voice in Stay With Me, wow. The boys have grown sooooooo much, Josh's, Sam's, Tiarnan's, Liam's, Jonathan's and even Alex's voices have gone deeper, yes?

I WANT THE DELUXE ALBUM x83273120391

put me right

2010-10-17T23:07:00.001+08:00

This is just, pure awesomeness ♥

deep love

2010-09-11T22:42:00.004+08:00

It's been a long time since I posted something about my beloved Libera so.... here are two videos of one one of my fave songs: Sanctus.

I really wish Libera would come to Singapore, I'd die to hear Sanctus live.

spill

2010-09-01T15:17:00.004+08:00

HELLO :)

Just thought you'd like to know that:

I've deleted my twitter account (simplysyafiqahs) so if you want to, you can follow me on my private one (syafiqahhamzah). Well, not really. Because I might not accept your request sorry, just deleted the former one because having more than one twitter accounts is tiring.
I'm a crazy bitch.
I don't know what to do with this blog.

Yeah, hope this makes up for the lack of updates on this blog. You can check out my tumblr though :) It's pretty much very, very updated heheheheee :)

see you walking down

2010-08-31T17:09:00.001+08:00

I knew about this like, last week? HEHEHE SO HAPPY BECAUSE TAEYANG IS ULTIMATE HOTNESS :)

serenade

2010-08-10T23:04:00.002+08:00

River Flows In You

I remembered Zack was the first one who played this song on Teachers' Day last year and apparently he played so beautifully that about a month later, I keep hearing this song being played over and over again by other pianists in the school :) I used to go crazy when I hear this song being played, even crazier when I found this video! Yiruma's expression is priceless, he seems so relaxed and calm like he's born to do this.

Mad awesome talent, I must say.

lift up my spirits

2010-08-03T21:53:00.006+08:00

How Can I Keep From Singing
Soloist: Sammy Moriarty

I LOVE SAMMY'S VOICE! Thanks Chix for posting and updating about this! (and the lovely fans who shared this information) And to Sammy, awesome job! Just love the little close up somewhere towards the end, hehe, I can see Kavana's head moving ;)

credible?

2010-07-18T21:48:00.007+08:00

[from here]

click and zoom.

EXCUSE ME.

WHAT ABOUT ALEX LEGGETT, ZACK LOCKETT, TIARNAN BRANSON, MICHAEL HORNCASTLE, CALLUM PAYNE, JAKOD WOOD, OLIVER COLE, THOMAS COLE, CONOR O'DONNEL, JONATHAN BARRINGTON, MICHAEL VEREYCKEN....

What were they doing then, if they were not also performers. I'm pretty sure you meant soloists because I'm sure the rest of the boys who weren't mentioned were not just standing there looking pretty in their robes. You gotta give credits properly.

angeli

2010-07-18T21:18:00.002+08:00

(this is a some sort of a copy paste from my tumblr)

I don't know if you all know but Libera (their concert in Holland) was aired yesterday at 9pm on OKTO. I texted a few people, people texted me to get me tuning onto that channel and basically I just wanted the whole freaking world to know so I tweeted about it.

Here were my tweets during the whole hour the programme played starting from 9.02pm:

Watching Libera on okto now <3
Ben Philipp did awesome in Lacrymosa <3
I always thought Liam seemed nervous during his mini-speech. But great job!
Love the closeup that they did of Josh. He has gorgeous eyes.
can't wait for the finale! Libera's awesommeeee <3
mmm, Josh did a great opening in this song! :)
Oh gosh. Better stop tweeting Libera stuff. but my oh my, they're so lovely <3
Wish I can sing like that.
Stay With Me. Liam's stunning in the high notes. WISH I CAN SING LIKE THAAATTTT.
Venite angeli cantate domino laudate. Stay with meeeeeee.
omg Tom Cully's best solo ever! And the final song after that. Yaaayyyyy!
Aw, love the "Phew!" expression Tom did at the end.
That was some amazing performance. Wish they'd come to Singapore!

Hi Libera, you're awesome!

you're special

2010-07-18T16:31:00.002+08:00

One of the million reasons why Kpop is so famous now <3

you look so dumb right now

2010-07-13T21:50:00.003+08:00

My classmates were singing this song during break last week :) I suddenly miss listening to old songs like Unfaithful... Rihanna's an awesome singer and she's so pretty!

soon to begin

2010-07-13T21:46:00.001+08:00

The first Libera song I heard <3

the risk that I'm taking

2010-07-04T21:46:00.005+08:00

HELLO!

I created a survey about this blog and I want you lovelies to take it :) click here please! Your answers/responses would be very much be appreciated THANK YOUUU!

Was listening to Halo on a bus ride back home and it reminded me of sweet, sweet love and how wonderful being in love and being loved is. I never got round to saying this but Halo remains one of my most favourite songs of all times. Beyonce is good.

pretend it's a holiday

2010-06-27T21:05:00.005+08:00

If you lovelies have read my tumblr or twitter you'd know that I made this little vow to detach myself a little from the Internet and that means no facebook, no twitter and no tumblr (and other activities that I normally do making me lose track of time and not study like I'm supposed to). I don't know how many people read this blog but I reckon there might be a few since I see the view count (scroll below) increasing each day (thanks for reading ♥) so I thought it'd be polite to tell you that I'm leaving Just a while, I promise, because I need to study so as not to be a disappointment in life and especially to my wonderful father who worked hard to support my education.

Just so you know, term starts tomorrow and I don't feel like wasting this term away like I did the last term and I really want to get decent grades this time :)

:copy-pasted from my tumblr:

I’m a full-time mugger starting from noooowwww.

If you want to talk to me, text/call/email me because I will not be checking facebook/twitter/formspring/tumblr till I feel like I have repented. IMMA BE A GOOD GIRL AND MUGMUGMUG AND SCORE REAL GOOD AND MAKE MY LOVELIES PROUD.

♥, Syafiqah.

a wretch like me

2010-06-20T18:36:00.005+08:00

I know that this is my second (or possibly third) entry on Amazing Grace but this song is so good and they are so many amazing (no pun intended, sweaarrr) singers doing this song, I just have to post it :)

She's 7-years-old, only seven.

I'm not sure what's her name, the description thingie on youtube didn't say and that's a pity because she's amazing. I had goosebumps listening to this kid sing, my jaw literally dropped with all the notes that she hit so effortlessly. Amazing Grace never gets old and this girl just made me love the song even more :) If you know who she is, drop me a comment alright?

By Il Divo :)
and to refresh your memories, read this entry to know them :)

An equally stunning performance by four very, very, very lovely men (they're old, so what, they're hot). Sebastian did a wonderful opening :) And of course the part when they all crescendoed at 3:00 after the bagpipe solo... they went totally wow. I can totally hear Carlos bass voice which practically exploded. Ahhh... and the hand movements and all... I love Il Divo ♥

if you look inside your heart

2010-06-18T00:15:00.002+08:00

Mariah Carey's Hero :)

Been listening to this song over and over for the past hour ♥ I love the meaningful lyrics and how it gave me so much hope after listening. This song has such a wonderful melody, the kind that once you hear it, you'll never forget it kind and how Mariah sang it so beautifully :)

then a hero comes along,
with the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside,
and you know you will survive.
When you feel like hope is gone,
look inside you and be strong,
and you finally see the truth,
that a hero lies in you

and watch us where we go

2010-06-17T11:05:00.002+08:00

Celine Dion and Josh Groban :)

This song is so well sung by these two and I really love Celine's voice. Her voice has this amazing quality that makes you wanna listen to her forever, oh yeah, she's that good :) Love the lyrics of the song and the music and the way these two talented singers bring it to the audience. Love how comfortable they look with singing and just sharing their music :) After You Raise Me Up, The Prayer is probably one of those songs that will always be in my list of favourite songs :)

to more than I can be

2010-06-03T23:01:00.004+08:00

Hi, I think I'm addicted to these two. THEY. ARE. SO. GOOD. They should totally record an album with all the covers they did. I especially like Amazing Grace (see previous post) and I really think that this version of You Raise Me Up is really good. Their harmonies in this song is top and they should really get signed or something. And it doesn't hurt that they're pretty too :) Really love the smiles on their faces as they sing, gives me a sense of happiness as well :)

Hello Janice and Sonia, you have a fan here... all the way from Singapore :)

how sweet the sound

2010-06-02T23:15:00.002+08:00

JANICE AND SONIA :)
(thanks YongHwei for introducing me to them!)

This pair of twins gotta be the most awesome singers ever. Totally love their harmonisations in this song :) I've heard Amazing Grace many times, done by various singers but I think this is the best yet. Their quality of music is really good and I simply love how they can make this song truly their own :)

They also did covers for many other songs like You Raise Me Up (this is absolutely stunning), Officially Missing You and others as well, I'm just naming a few of my favourites <3 Go on, listen to them alright?

your biggest fan

2010-05-31T21:10:00.003+08:00

THIS IS GREYSON CHANCE, A NEW SINGING SENSATION (Y)
I'm pretty much loving this dude :) Played this video for 85327289 times and it never gets old. His voice is just so awesome!! I love the way he hits the notes so perfectly and the way he opens his mouth wide to sing "Paparaaaazi"... it's like WOW. He's really talented! And yeah though some might say he's like the next Justin Bieber, I kinda beg to differ. Greyson's more talented BUT I still like Justin more simply because he's cuter :) Oh yeah I'm superficial that way, but whatever. GREYSON, YOU'RE AWESOME WITH THE PIAAANNOOO (Y)

And talking about singing sensations, if you're a Libera fan, you might wanna check out Tom Cully's Music Page. He's another singing sensation and I think he's friggin' awesome :) The covers that he did especially Until The End Of Time was just mind-blowing... he's really good. If you don't remember, he's also the awesome soloist of this song and now that he's no longer part of Libera. he's making all these awesome music and yeah, he's mighty talented as well :) Please listen!

and your heart-warming smiles

2010-05-20T19:10:00.004+08:00

Thanks loads OfficialLibera for always updating us and everything. Keeps me wanting more ♥

Great pictures taken like the one at 1:41, again, everyone looks so happy! What's up with me and happy pictures lol but when I saw that picture, I smiled instantly :) And at 2:57... they visited Venice!! How cool because I remembered learning about that country for O levels last year. And a picture of the Alps at 3:11... lol certainly remembered that while learning about Plate Tectonics for Geography :) Libera's very educational lol

Spread the Libera ♥

Libera's 2010 Spring Tour

2010-05-19T20:01:00.007+08:00

Love this group photo the most! Flynn looks so happy :) And look at towering Jonathan!! And that smile from Matthew and Carlos! Aw, this is such a happy picture... I LIKE!

Freddie and James M! Hello James, you look very, very adorable doing that! (Y)

Flynn(?), Stefan, Jakob, Alfie(?), Sam, Luke and JOSHHH! Look how tall he is :)

From Libera's Facebook page!

Logged onto Facebook and saw this on my feed and I was like "YAAAY!" Really love that adorable photo of James :) I'm sure everyone from Libera had a fun time touring around and doing concerts for all their music-lovers. From what I read in forums and all, people who went for their concerts all had a great time. Wish Libera would come here!!

Libera is ♥

edited: I thought the first picture looked so familiar and when I checked back, I realised it's taken outside a temple in Tokyo! NO WONDER. I remembered touring to Japan with the choir and visiting temples like that around Japan :) I know it sounds stupid but I like how I had travelled to Japan to sing with the choir just like Libera. It makes the memory even sweeter and I hell wish I can go there again :)

And by the way... Libera is ♥! (Y)

you never know

2010-05-09T16:54:00.001+08:00

I think it's thick of you to be adding members from Libera on FB when the officials clearly tell you not to. It's not cool, not fun and definitely NOT something you should be announcing to the whole world. Okay, I get that you're a stalker, Libera-obsessed but to go to the extent of adding the boys' family members as friends? Wow, that's stalkerdom to a whole new level, you know.

diamonds

2010-05-03T16:01:00.002+08:00

(credits to Inna's post)

This is by Dennis Chmelensky and admit it, you are amazed by his talent. I got goosebumps listening to those crazy high notes. HE. IS. GOOD. He's kinda like a mini Josh Groban or something and I'm sure he'd make a great tenor in the future :)

please

2010-04-27T18:43:00.003+08:00

I was not really a fan of KPop till recently. For a new fan, I'm pretty gaga over this hottie. TAEYANG ♥ He's like the improved version of JMac because of his awesome dancing. I totally am in ♥ with this song! Really love the way he smiles and the way he sings and the way he moves basically. Total hotness.

by your side

2010-04-19T18:37:00.003+08:00

We watched this video during Literature lecture just now. It's kinda freaky and I was telling YongHwei that this song is perfect for little kids who are up for a scare lol. I MEAN, LOOK IT'S UTTER LUNACY! If you guys have read Wuthering Heights, you'd kinda understand the lyrics.

If that's insane, try viewing this. It's exactly the same except for the dress which makes it DOUBLE FREAKY.

Don't ask me why she sounds like that. Maybe oldies like to listen to this kinda music lol

can't lie

2010-04-18T18:47:00.002+08:00

I noticed Tiarnan's, Josh's, Jon's and Sam's voices are all around that same low pitch ;)

CAESSIUS IS SO CUTE SERIOUSLY. Aw, did you people hear him doing the funny sound?! It's totally awwwww.... And I kinda like how Ralph sort of patted him on the back, it was so brotherly and such a nice thing to do :)

Tell me, how not to love Libera?

in every way

2010-04-14T20:57:00.002+08:00

Libera singing Bayan Ko on a Filipino channel :)

I loveeee this group so much I think my heart will just break into half whenever I think of them not performing in Singapore :( PLEASEEE COME HERE ALREADY.

I love their expressions, they all look so happy and comfortable performing this piece. I don't know but it seems as though their Tagalog has gotten better since the last performance. Haha, Tagalog-speaking-people correct me if I'm wrong ok? I especially love the close-ups that they made of James M! He looked soooo adorable :) And of course the close up on Kavana lol who never seem to lose his head movement thingie that he does when he sings... awww, I REALLY LOVE THIS VIDEO!!!

I have a feeling I'd just die of amazement when I finally get to hear them live lol.

everyday I see

2010-04-13T21:03:00.002+08:00

Ooh, I love behind-the-scenes videos from Libera ♥
This kinda remind me of the time when people did make-up for me while we were preparing for concerts... aw, miss those times! Josh looked super adorable talking to the camera while having his face made up :) AND IS THAT TOM CULLY I SEE! (Y)

the sweetest center

2010-04-13T21:00:00.001+08:00

Ralph and Ben did awesome for the solo parts :) I’m beginning to like Ralph’s voice and I love the way he smiles so sweetly while singing. Oh yesss Kavana did great on the high notes too! He sounded stronger as compared to the last time at Crystal Cathedral :) AND JOSH. Very nice haircut, I can finally see your beautiful face!

Libera will do fab in the concerts, I know it.

beauty

2010-04-13T20:55:00.000+08:00

I read on Inna’s blog about Josh making a speech about his voice change. My heart made this sinking sensation as I read because he was actually the first voice that I heard on solo. That is why, his voice, alongside with Tom Cully’s, will always be my favourite voices of Libera. Reading the speech, I can’t help but feel sad that Josh is going to leave soon. I know it’s natural for trebles to finally lose their high voice as their voices break, but as a fan, I wish that it’d last forever.

There’s always this special feeling that you’ll get listening to Josh. It’s even better if you watch him, because he has this sweet, heart-melting smile that goes really well with his sweet and gentle voice. I’ve never watch Libera perform live but I’ve seen videos and I hell wish that I was there to witness these beautiful voices serenading their lovely music.

To Josh, although you won’t be singing any more treble notes, I’m sure you’ll do just great on the lower notes just like Tom :) Keep that beautiful smile on, Josh, you have a lot of potential to shine.

2010-04-13T20:48:00.002+08:00

I've decided that this blog shall be solely for Libera or other amazing musicians that I'll come across in my life :) I know Tumblr's fun but it's kinda hard to post videos + pictures because I'm not used to the configurations yet. All my other posts regarding my personal life/non-music related have been deleted so don't bother looking okay :)

Thanks Inna, for giving me this idea :)

You can visit my tumblr here

only together

2010-03-08T23:47:00.010+08:00

I think Stefan was stunning ♥ on Deep Peace. I WANT THE ALBUM NOW!!!

AND BY THE WAY. Look who's there... TOM CULLY! When people thought his voice broke and he's not on the new album. He's also the soloist for Ave Virgo ;D Oooh and new faces ;D Awesome. And as usual, nice smile, Kavana. Gosh, that boy sure is photogenic huh? LOL I love Flynn's expression, that sure put a smile on my face :) The photos are ♥♥♥♥♥♥ These pictures made me smile so wide I think my lips are gonna crack in half, I was sooooo happy :)

Now, back to my Geography notes.

injection through my heart

2010-02-19T23:34:00.002+08:00

I have been listening to lots of Jesse McCartney ;D He makes good music PLUS he's such an eye-candy ♥ Here's one awesome song:

In My Veins

Atiqah introduced me to this song last year (?) but I didn't like it at first since I prefer slower songs and all. But when you're sleepy and tired, you cannot listen to slow songs. They make you sleepier, so upbeat and fast songs are the best ;D

Today was great ♥

It's like I got a shot,
Injection through my heart,
It flows through my body.
Jesse McCartney's In My Veins

don't let go

2010-02-06T21:11:00.002+08:00

Credits: Libera and fans who posted these on forums/their websites. Click and zoom!

I know that I'm so slow in updating my blog about Libera but I was just finding the right mood to blog about them lol. Oh yes, my mood nowadays are rotating from tired to listless to annoyed to busy to all the moods that a busy student will have. I also have not been listening to their music a lot since school started because I'm too tired to listen to anything and just want peace (no pun intended haha) and silence. So, yes that's why.

But today as I revised my Geography stuff, I listened to Libera and yeah I guess that's why I'm in the mood. Okay, I don't make sense, whatever.

These are some pictures of the Libera boys shooting for the new album, Peace. And honestly, I'm damn excited! The first two songs that were released O Sanctissima and Time were already big hits among fans and I believe that the rest of the songs will be even better. I really hope that Kavana and Flynn will get solos :) That'll be way awesome. I wanted to place an order for their album online but Dad said "no you will not use my card to shop online" and I don't know if the album will be shipped to Singapore anyway. SO PLEASE LET PEACE BE IN SINGAPORE CD SHOPS!

Here are the songs, O Sanctissima and Time from the album, Peace.

Do click and play and spread the Libera ♥♥♥♥♥

knowing what

2010-02-05T21:04:00.000+08:00

I am supposed to be revising my music and practising my duet but nooooo. I'm such a procrastinator, I know.

I'm keeping my mouth shut and so should you.

Anyway, I really love this song! It's pretty old I know but whatever. Lenka's so bloody awesome. Really sweet voice and the song is soooo happy and it makes me smile :)

Lectures and tutorials will start next week. Pretty excited! The first lesson is Economics :) It's a new subject for me and I hope it's not too hard to understand. This is totally random but I need to apply extra pressure when I key in the letter "O". Urgh, annoying. Count how many Os are there in this post and you'll know how irritating it is. OKAY DIGRESSING OMG. No, I don't really know what to blog about anyway.

By the way, I had the GP test just now. Killer man, total killer.

Click here for "The Show" lyrics.

waiting for no one

2010-01-22T22:52:00.005+08:00

This is called Time, from the newest Libera album called 'Peace'.

The album cover, I suppose. Nice smile, Kavana ;) From left to right, it's James M, James T, Ralph, Freddie and Kavana. This can be found at Libera's Facebook.

Oh, what more can I say? Just click and listen, this is just way undescribable. One of the million reasons why I'm such a fan ♥

meeting you

2010-01-19T00:20:00.003+08:00

This was the first I saw of Libera, somewhere in April, last year. It was shown at a local channel and I was just channel-surfing till I saw a cute boy talking and decided to stop and watch (It was Ben). I honestly was about to change the channel and then Josh started singing. I thought they were girls, at first, especially when the camera did a close up on Josh's face and I couldn't decide if he was a boy/girl (his eyes!!!!). It took me about a whole minute before figuring out that this is a boys' choir because of their unnaturally high voices. When they entered the chorus, my jaw literally dropped lol, I WAS BLOWN AWAY. The whole time, as they sang, I kept thinking "ohmygod they are so good ohmygod". It was a pity that I only watched the last bit lol and I was a kinda sad that the performance ended so quickly (for me).

Because I Am The Day was the first song I heard of Libera, it will always be one of my favourites alongside other amazing songs like Salva Me, Gloria and Far Away. I thought the song was just perfect, the harmonies blended with such perfection, it leaves tingles all over as I heard it. The descant note at the end was just amazing and totally jaw-droppingly good :) I thought of the sopranos in my own choir as I heard these boys sing, thinking that we will never be as good as them. But then again, I love the girls anyway, for the great friendship and fun rehearsal times <33

But I forgot about them all over, until my friend mentioned about hearing a boys' choir on TV, a few days later, saying that she thought they were so bloody good. With the two songs that she sent me (Salva Me and Sanctus), I searched for Libera on Youtube/Google and then, from there, the love just grew :) Honestly, I was damn glad that I channel-surfed that night, I was glad that the Malay drama that was on that night was boring so thus me channel-surfing and BOY WAS I GLAD BEN WAS TALKING, HE SOUNDED SO CUTE I JUST HAD TO STOP AND WATCH!

Slowly, I learnt all their names and as I searched more, I learnt about the newer boys like Kavana and Flynn and all their amazing songs. I started buying their songs from Itunes (only $15 per album LOL CHEAP- but my dad still yelled at me for it!) and listening to them everytime. I listen to them most when I'm studying because I'm the kind that cannot study in silence- I will just fall asleep- and during my free time and practically memorised their songs off by heart. I think the song that's most played on my playlist has got to be Far Away and Gloria ;) Those two are just amaaazzzziiinnngggg <33 I WANT TO BUT THE ALBUM COVERS LOL WHY SINGAPORE NEVER SELLLLLLLL!

Okay, seriously, it's supposed to be more than this but I got sidetracked and now I cannot remember what I want to blog about. All in all, Libera has not only captured me with their mad awesome talents, but also with their personalities and the way they express their music. I've said this before, but I really enjoy NOT only listening to them but also watching them perform. And of course, with Libera, I also made a great bunch of online friends (you know who you are). It's really sweet with their emails and everything and I do hope that there will be more wonderful friendships to be forged :)

Here are the links to the videos/songs that I was talking about, click and watch and spread the Libera love!

Sanctus, Far Away, Gloria and Salva Me.

perfect timing

2010-01-18T11:45:00.000+08:00

I was listening to Lily Allen's Fuck You (with the volume cranked up and all) and singing at the top of my voice when my dad suddenly came out of nowhere and started talking to me. I swear I almost broke my finger, jabbing at the volume button lol. And of course, I hurriedly change the song to something more innocent (Justin Bieber's One Time) and tried to act normal and not guilty because I just swore in front of my parent, no, singing swearwords in front of him. AWKWAAAARRRDDDD.

I LOVE JUSTIN BIEBER'S COMMON DENOMINATOR!

Awesome, man. Justin has done a really sweet one on this and I really like it. Click here for the studio version and I'm beginning to like his voice, it's sweet and gentle just like a certain someone I know who also sings the same way ;)

Anyway, it's 11.30am and I'm utterly bored. I have no idea why but I keep waking up really early, as early as 7AM WILL YOU BELIEVE IT? I was going to practise the duet but then it's only Monday and I have sooooo much time till Saturday so yeah, here I am. I am such a procrastinator, I know but I'm just enjoying the last of my holidays ;) The posting results will be out soooonnnn and I can't wait. Hope I get into the school of my choice.

Oooh, Jamie Oliver's on TV, I'm going to watch him cook! No, I'm not a fan, really, I just like listening to his English accent. Really chaaar-ming you know :) Toodles!

playing kids

2010-01-16T13:15:00.000+08:00

All I want is the wind in my hair
To face the fear but, not feel scared
Wild horses I wanna be like you
Throwing caution to the wind
I'll run free too
Wish I could recklessly love, like I'm longing to
Run with the wild horses, run with the wild horses

-Natasha Bedingfield's Wild Horses

This is exactly how I feel right now and I wish there are words to describe it and I hate how I always am at a loss for words when I try to explain my emotions. You know what, right now, I wish I don't have a heart. No heart = no feelings = no emotions to decipher. You think it's so easy to ignore all that, well guess what. How come I'm not having a n easy time?

Why am I so angry nowadays? NO IT'S NOT PMS DON'T BE RIDICULOUS.

Fine. I shall watch some cartoons now and laughlaughlaugh and be happpyyyy. Cos being sad makes me cry and crying takes up energy and I'm tired. OH I KNOW I WILL EAT SOME CEREAL YAY, THAT MAKES ME HAPPY.

I know the video has nothing to do with the post but it has the song, Wild Horses, oh yes, do listen to it, Natasha Bedingfield is soooo awesome :) Click here for the lyrics.

like you mean it

2010-01-13T03:00:00.002+08:00

I don't really like listening to people doing song covers on Youtube but I was searching for Jesse McCartney's Body Language and I came across this guy who can sing really, really well. Damn, can Usher give him a recording contract already!

He's good, right right right! Anyway, in case you think I'm giving all the wrong credits whatsoever to Jesse, just know that I'm not. I blogged about Jesse McCartney here before and I still think that he did better (duh, he's the original artist). It's just that this guy's really good :)

starry night

2010-01-05T19:11:00.002+08:00

The amazing Ben Philipp :)

Both these pictures are screenshots from this video and this video respectively ;)

This, by the way, is the performance they did at PICC. You may not be able to hear all of the things that I'll be talking about but just make do with it okay?

I am really grateful to Chix for letting me listen to the studio version of Bayan Ko. It has such a beautiful melody and Ben had done an amazing job, leading the solo. I may not understand the words or I may not feel the emotion that the Filipinos feel when they listen to Bayan Ko, but surely, Ben had captured my heart with his amazing vocals in this song. He certainly deserved more and more solos as his talents continue to shine and wow everyone who listens to it.

I thought Bayan Ko was superbly done. When I first heard it (the studio track, I mean), I thought it was simply beautiful. The "aaahhh" part on the beginning was simply breathtaking and when Libera sings "Bayan Ko, binihag ka, nasadlak sa dusa", I feel warm all over as an unexplainable emotion surrounds me. It's that beautiful. I love the chorus where the whole choir burst into "Ibon may mayang layang lumipad" and here, you can here the lower voices quite clearly (TOMMMMMM!). I love it when they sang "aking adhika, makita kang sakdal laya" The high note that they did at "sakdal" was just mind blowing, it was just so good. When the chorus ended with "laya", you can hear the lower voices even louder and I think that it's simply amazing.

As Ben sang his solo part, I became even more amazed. This part made me close my eyes for a while and I savoured his beautiful voice. This song was, in my honest opinion, a Ben-dominated song. You can hear him all over the song, not only the solo part and I really loved it. When Ben sings "dayuhan ay nahalina" (which is my favourite part of the whole song), I feel my heart just stop a while, it was simply precious. I loved how his voice made a dipping sensation as he sang the note, it was just omg.

Libera then went on with the chorus again with sweet harmonisation of the "aaahhs" which fit the song perfectly. The "aahh" vowel was done very well and I loved how the lower voices and the higher voices combined perfectly to give that glorious sound. They ended the whole song with a fortissimo "laya", voices just soaring high, giving you this free feeling which is what "laya" means in Tagalog ;)

I was not a fan of Ben's voice, but when I watched the video of him singing Far Away in Crystal Cathedral, my opinions changed a little. Just a little. And then came Bayan Ko and O Sanctissima, two amazing songs that made me fall in love with Ben's voice. The songs were just perfect for his voice and he did so, so well in both.

I think among the three solos, Bayan Ko is my favourite solo of Ben Philipp. The high notes in this song is made up mostly of Ben's voice and of course, the other amazing trebles in Libera (I just thought his voice covered the whole song). And I don't know if you can hear, but in the chorus, I hear a little of Josh. It's very faint and sweet and just made this song even more amazing than it already is ;) From the reviews that I've read, they said that Daniel was supporting Ben in this song- I don't know, maybe you'd like to comment and tell me what you think? :D

Oh well, I can't believe I did a whole review of Bayan Ko lol. Sorry if I seem to breaking down every part of the song, but I just had to so that you will all know what an amazing song this is. By the way, I got all the lyrics from Chix's blog and she even translated the words, so you might want to take a look ;) This is just what I think of the song so please pardon my lack of vocabulary power to describe how wonderful this song is. You just have to listen to it and feel it for yourself.

Hope you enjoyed reading this review :D
edited: by the way, Libera just uploaded a new video (slideshow), click here. Awesome pics!

realisation

2009-12-30T14:49:00.001+08:00

my world, is your world and my fight is your fight- Justin Bieber's One Time
I've been hearing/reading a lot of Justin Bieber when I go blog-hopping and seriously, I could not be bothered at first. But, I don't know why I click on the video anyway when I saw it on this particular blog (I can't remember where) and watched the whole thing. And boy, I was so happy I did because the song's not bad :) Considering that he's only 15 years old and so bloody cute, I think he's not that bad after all. So I searched for his videos on Youtube and here's what I found:

He looks pretty cute to me and I would hate to think what his voice will sound like if it breaks. I hope it'll sound as good as now ;) He's got a certain charm when he sings.

This is the acoustics version and I find this a whole lot nicer. He's got a nice tone for slow songs and he looks so mad cute playing his guitar ;) I'm a sucker for guys who can play musical instruments & sing :D I find it so cute when he goes "my worrrrld is your worrrrld", haha, and that's so crazy because I somehow find it annoying when people roll their 'Rs' too much.
click here for the lyrics

Aww, the song's stuck in my head. Justin Bieber, respect.

amazed

2009-12-28T21:48:00.000+08:00

I've been looking for this video for quite a while and I'm darn happy I found it :) Thanks Youtube, you rock! Anyway, remember my entry on Avril Lavinge's Canon commercial? I searched for the video right after I saw it but I didn't find anything but two more awesome commercials that she did. She looked fabulous in all videos and oh yes, she does make me want to get a Canon camera too ;)

This was the first video that I found. She wore a pretty red dress at the end ;)

This was the second one and it's cool because they shot Avril taking a picture and she looked soooo cool!

And finally, the best one! This was the one that I saw on TV and she sang 'Innocence'.

Isn't Avril awesome? I really love her songs and her cool personality and she's really pretty too :)

on pitch

2009-12-25T17:40:00.002+08:00

HAPPY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE! & let's enjoy our soon-to-be-gone holidays NOWWWW before they're gone! ;) *hintOLEVELRESULTSCOMINGSOONhint*

Got this from Stranger's (JiaQi) blog & I thought I'd do it too :)

OST OF MY LIFE - Put your itunes in Shuffle Mode and the first 18 songs corresponds to the 18 parts of your life.

Opening Credits- Jai Ho by Pussycat Dolls
Waking Up- Sing The Story by Libera (solo: Michael Horncastle)
First Day At School- How Can I Keep From Singing (solo: Joshua Madine)
Falling In Love- Bubbly by Colbie Caillat
Fight Song- Can I Have This Dance by Zac Efron & Vanessa Hudgens (I know, I know, what a song for a fight)
Breaking Up- Miss Independant by Ne-Yo
Prom- Ave Maria by Libera (solo: Conor O'Donnell) OHMG AVE MARIA FOR PROM?! LOL.
Life's OK- Gloria by Libera
Mental Breakdown- Even Though You're Gone by Angelis
Driving- Secret by Libera (solo:Joshua Madine)
Flashback- Teardrops On My Guitar by Taylor Swift
Getting Back Together- Fly With Me by Jonas Brothers
Wedding- Angelis by Libera
Birth of Child- Goodnight and Goodbye by Jonas Brothers no wonder there's a death scene with this song being played while I'm squeezing a freaking baby out of my down there, OHMG.
Final Battle- I Am The Day by Libera (solo:Joshua Madine & Sam Leggett)
Death Scene- Halo by Beyonce
Funeral Song- Body Language by Jesse McCartney I would not like this to be played at my funeral, what the hell!
End Credits- Tell Me Why by Declan Galbraith

Okay, I know there's a lot of Libera songs and my dad almost blew his top when I purchased so many songs with but they're worth it okay! You can also make your purchase at their official website and one album only cost about $15 (SGD) and that's pretty cheap,yes? Okay, I'm promoting Libera so cheer for me! <33 Remember, spread the Libera love people!

That was interesting ;) It's been a long time since I do this kind of quizzes and all, so thank you my lovely stranger for putting this up at your blog <3

hold me tight

2009-12-24T21:04:00.009+08:00

I'm not gonna lie, Tom Cully's one of the best soloists Libera ever has.

You know, sometimes, certain songs keep playing in your head for no rhyme or reason. I know I've been listening to lots of Libera music these couple of months or even longer, but I have no idea why I keep hearing this particular song today (and right now). So, I went to Youtube and watched the video and I kept replaying it. I really want to get the DVD but I don't think Singapore has it, the last time I checked, they only had Free and some other one which I forgot. Here's Do Not Stand At My Grave and Weep, by the way, the song that I mentioned earlier.

This is one of my favourite solos done by Tom. I think this song really portrays his amazing treble voice in the most precious and... (okay, here's where my vocabulary power fails me) it really is one of the best performances he's ever done. It's a real pity that I will not get to see him live at all because I doubt they will come to Singapore (the fanbase here is very small) and also because he's no longer a treble. But that being said, he's doing really well singing the low notes.

It's no wonder people call Tom the legendary soloist of Libera since he's done so many solos. There are so many, Far Away, Always With You, Rest In Peace, Ave Maria and of course, the famous You Were There. His voice has this tender and delicate quality which Do Not Stand At My Grave and Weep managed to capture extremely well. When he sings the descant note, backed by Ed Day, you get this ethereal feeling like you cannot believe such a beautiful sound is coming out from this boy.

Mr Prizeman, the director, really chooses his soloists well as they manage to blow me away with the amazingly beautiful songs everytime. There's Joshua Madine and Secret and Liam Connery and Sancte. And of course, there's Ben Philipp and O Sanctissima. Each song seems like they were specially composed for the soloist and that's why they're so special. Of course, there are other songs that do not have soloists like Gloria and Sanctus but still has a distinctive Libera quality as the boys hit the rooftop high notes and just wow the audience.

It's a pity that the group is not very well-known here, but I hope that more and more people will get to know about them as I blog ;) I remembered when I let a friend listen to Libera's Love and Mercy, he was like "Is that the Vienna Boys' Choir?!" Lol, I can practically feel my face contorting like some retard as I try to explain who Libera is. Do click and play, okay, you gotta give them a try and see if you like them. ;D

I CAN'T WAIT TO GET MY HANDS ON THE NEWEST ALBLUM!

Edited: HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY CHRISTABELLE! :)

playing cards

2009-12-24T02:43:00.015+08:00

I should have just kept quiet, words can be so fatal.
entry deleted, I do not wish to post too much personal thoughts here.

So on a happier note, I found a really cute video of Libera singing the Ponyo theme song while reading Inna's blog. Please visit her blog, she posted two more videos of Libera touring to Japan early this year where they sang Sanctus and You Were There. ;)

So cute, right? What really made me like this was when Tom (?- I'm not too sure about this) hummed the first note to the boys and started them off. It reminded me a bit of the choir ensembles that we used to have where someone will hum the first note and start us off. Aww, I miss those times :'( Oh and of course the part where the camera shot Josh and Liam and showed them smiling while singing. Okay, they were not really smiling but their eyes showed it and I remembered the times when my conductor will tell us to sing through our eyes. I really like that!

Please spread the Libera love now <33

rock it

2009-12-23T18:39:00.004+08:00

I was searching some videos on Youtube and I stumbled upon Jesse McCartney's Body Language. It's a pretty awesome song and I like how he mixed some foreign words (it's only two but still?!) into the song. And it has quite a catchy tune too :) I really like Jesse McCartney (not because he has the same initials as JM-those who don't know, too bad, I'm not telling) and I think his voice is good. And he's really good-looking too! I know there are fans who prefer his old looks/songs but I think this new Jesse McCartney is pretty cool too ;) By the way, here's a video of the song.

Click here for the lyrics.

brilliant moments

2009-12-20T22:13:00.002+08:00

I really have to be more aware about the world's current affairs, like how the volcano, Mount Mayon, in the Philippines is predicted to erupt within the next few days.

I feel kinda worried for the results. The year's gonna end soon which translates to the release of O levels results being closer. The N level candidates in Mayflower did well, with Loic being one of the top scorers in the country so... I don't know. I'm sure they'd expect more of the O levels candidates, yes?

I'm suddenly interested in Avril Lavinge, after watching the Canon commercial thing, she has such a pretty face :). The song played was Innocence and I remembered that it used to be one of my favourite songs :) There's a lot of Avril's songs that I like, actually. Her songs are kinda like Taylor Swift's with lyrics that actually relates to real life.

Okay, I have nothing to blog about, really. I'm just updating so as not to kill this blog. I'm updating a lot in my limegreen journal actually. I already gave it a name, but I'm not disclosing it here. If you ask me, I'll lie ;) I update almost everyday now, don't ask why. I just like writing (as in physically) and I'm just trying to improve my penmanship. It's odd, but handwriting's has gone haywire. I suspect it's because I've not written for so long and I've been using the computer too much. I recalled Zack talking to Josh about it yesterday during practice because he was holding his pencil in a very odd position (like someone learning to write for the first time).

I'm gonna make a 99-things-to-do-in-2010 list and maybe I'll post some of it here. Why not all? Because some things that I have in mind are waaaayyy too personal. Bye for now! ;)

you want it too

2009-12-17T10:05:00.009+08:00

I've been watching the Libera Christmas Greetings video for about twenty times at least and I can never get enough of it. These boys are so adorable! And I kept replaying the part with Kavana, Flynn and the new boy :) Their laughter made me laugh too and I just had to capture those moments. Please watch the full video (click on the link above) and spread the Libera love <3. I really cannot wait for the new album now, I really wanna hear the new soloists! I hope Kavana gets a solo, I've been dying to hear him ever since the high notes that he did on Far Away with Ben :)

Hmm, I know, I know. Two consecutive posts on Libera. Well, I can't help that they're so bloody awesome and so talented and adorable all at the same time!

Anyway, I'm done with Bloody London. Excellent book and plot but the ending was a bit disappointing. It was kind of like the ending in My Sister's Keeper where Anna died instead of Kate. I'm a sucker for thrillers/crime/detective novels now so if you have any good books, do tag and let me know so that I can go and check it out! By the way, if you wanna read Bloody London, take note that the author is Reggie Nadelson.

I'm currently reading Six Reasons To Stay A Virgin by Louise Harwood. I've read the first chapter and I thought it was pretty interesting! I feel like a primary school kid but I'm still gonna say this: Reading is fun! :)

Why primary school kid, you may ask. Well, I remember when I was in primary school, the teachers are always asking us to read lots of books and for art and crafts lessons, we'll make bookmarks and using crayons and colour pencils, we'll scribble 'Reading is fun!' on them. I used to make lots of bookmarks because I kept losing them :( But now, I use pieces of paper as bookmarks lol, I'm too lazy to make one.

Hmm, that gives me an idea. Maybe I should make bookmarks! :)

nicely surprised

2009-12-16T15:29:00.002+08:00

What a bloody nice surprise. I woke up, checked my inbox and here's what I found.

Awesome, isn't it? Aww, the Libera boys are so adorable and I spot some new boys too! I can't wait for them to make an appearance or something :) I really like the part with Ralph talking about Christmas, he sounded so jolly and happy (well, it's Christmas). Oh and the part with Daniel and Jakob and Freddie (and a new boy on the far right) do the thumbs-up thing. Apparently, that's like a very Daniel thing to do (the thumbs-up) as he does that in other videos too. Lol, it's like "IT'S GOOOODDDD!" *thumbs-up* I love it when Libera shares theses kinds of videos and let us see the boys in a laughing, happy manner, it really cheers me up.

Merry Christmas, everyone (although I don't celebrate it) and hope you'll have a blast! :)

in a circle

2009-12-15T22:17:00.001+08:00

It's 10.10pm and I haven't had any food and I'm terribly hungry. I skipped dinner thinking that I will not be hungry (since I ate a heavy lunch) but, boy was I wrong :( So I'm waiting for my dad to come home and hopefully, he buys some food.

Anyway, I was on the phone with Atiqah for almost two hours? I miss that bitch, it's been so long since we've met and I'm so glad she called. We talked about loads of things: O levels, Libera (mainly just about Josh/Kavana), her holiday to Chiang Mai, my music lessons, a certain classmate (*winkwink*) and some other stuff which I can't remember. Oh and of course, we talked about some hot guys. Oh and we talked about journals :) She named hers after her favourite actor. Hmm, that gives me an idea. Should I name my journal after someone? No, okay, maybe not. It's too...never mind.

Yay, CSI's gonna be on in an hour or so! Can't wait. I think I shall update my journal after this and hopefully, I'll be able to think of a name. Or maybe I should just let it be nameless?

hiding from it all

2009-12-15T02:14:00.001+08:00

Yay, my blog's pink again! Hmm, I have no idea why I'm all for pink nowadays. Strange, huh? A few years ago, I was one of those girls that shirk away from anything pink or purple. I thought pink was for sissies, but now, look at me. Happily loving pink and thinking what a horrible world it is without pink (I'm not making sense here, don't mind me).

But, my favourite colour is still limegreen. Oh yes, I know I've said this countless times, I think it's vital to keep reminding everyone my favourite colour. :)

You know, sometimes, people can be very unpredictable. It's hard to please everyone and it seems as if whatever you do, it's never enough. You try, but they don't give you a chance. When you err, they don't tell you where you've gone wrong so that you can change. They mock you and hurt you and insult you but they never realise that along the way, they're becoming more and more pretentious and hypocritical. They claim to know everything about you, but in the end, they got it all wrong. They assumed too much, doubting the truth and they refuse to see their mistakes. They've screwed up their lives and instead of mending their ways, they're ruining other people's lives.

It's easy to push the blame to someone else. You just have to flex a finger and point.

I used to believe in you but now, everything has changed. You were the one who got into this mess, not me. You clean it up because I will not.

I tried to help, you pushed me away.

highly regarded

2009-12-14T19:37:00.016+08:00

to make this entry not so mundane, here's Declan Galbraith :) He's cute, isn't he? I blogged about him in just found, and yes, he can sing!

I am going insane at my neighbour's noisiness and I swear that if he doesn't shut up in the next ten minutes, I will make him. Honestly. It's 7.15pm and shouldn't he be having dinner or something, not making a hell lot of noise at the corridor, banging doors and bouncing basketballs?! I swear Singaporeans can be so bloody inconsiderate.

Alright, you may have noticed that my blog has changed a lot. From all pink to white and plain like now. I'm sorry, Edel, I was just so bored, I had to do something like changing my blog template. I'm not changing this again, I promise, I'm too tired configuring the codes and stuff. And yes, the music. I've taken it out, I'm too lazy to put the music back because I accidentally deleted the whole thing and now I'm lazy to find the music all over again.

I don't know if I'm the only person who notices this, but I've been hearing the wind a lot. Like, really strong wind and the blowing sounds. Hmm, it makes me kinda scared because it makes me think that Singapore is having some typhoon or something. The wind's really loud, you know. And it makes Singapore kinda cool too (cool as in temperature) and I think this is the closest that the country will experience winter lol, since it doesn't snow in Singapore. But then again, with the current climatic changes, I'm not surprised if Singapore continues to get colder.

Global warming. *screams*

I have a feeling my blogging spark is all gone and I have no idea why. I'm just ranting aimlessly and not making any sense like now. Maybe, I should have just stuck to writing. Or maybe my creative juices have run out. Argh. Enough ranting, I'm gonna have some dinner now.

your fickle-minded blogger,

Syafiqah.

edited: I did some changes again so you should be able to hear Libera's You Were There :)

you asked me why

2009-12-13T20:20:00.001+08:00

So, if you're on my blog and you're wondering what the hell is playing when you don't see any music player anywhere on the page, it's Libera's You Were There and the reason you can't see anything is because I changed the coding thing and made the size so small it cannot be seen. But, of course, this only works if you're using Mozilla Firefox :) There's a little square thingy that appears on at the top if you're using Internet Explorer or Google Chrome.

Okay, you know what. I came here with something in mind and then when I glanced at Bloody London (this is the book I'm currently reading) and then I forgot. Damn it. Hmm, this is getting boring. I think I'm gonna read Bloody London and update my journal after.

Yes, I've started writing in my limegreen journal. It's still nameless. Suggestions, anyone?

perfect feast

2009-12-12T14:21:00.002+08:00

I'm supposed to be meeting Dad for lunch, but he hasn't called yet. Argh, I'm hungryyyyyy. :(

Anyway, today's singing session was probably where I did the most work :) We did some scales where we had to sing from a doh to a soh but in a sigh-yawn kinda style. I could not get it right at the beginning even after Xiuhui's help. But when Ben and Shuai Xun coached me and did some hand gesture thing, I got it! I was so happy lol, because it felt as though I'll never get it right. But it was fun, and I just need to concentrate and put in more effort. The seniors were definitely helpful and affable :) And, boy, they're funny, too! Especially the guys. They kept joking around and made everyone laughed.

We also did some theory work and Mr Chen helped me with the bass clef and the treble clef thing. He taught me how to determine the key-note for each key signature and helped me do the tonic triad thing. It was okay, I learnt something new :)

The first song that we sang was a round called 'Sumer Is Cumen In', which means 'Summer is Coming In' in Old English. It was rather challenging as I was grouped with Josh, Ben and Shuai Xun (all tenors) and they had to sing an octave lower and so I could not get some notes right. Later, I sang the round with Xiuhui and Joyce and I messed up BIIIIGGGGG time :( I just could not get the tempo and we had to sing again and again. Hmm, I think I really got lots of work to do the coming week.

After that, we practised some sight reading which I thought went pretty well. I can sight read better now *grins happily* and I definitely feel more confident with the seniors. But like I said, there's still LOOOOOTTTSSSS of room for improvement and I can't wait for the next practice!

Oh and by the way, the guys will be doing the carol Once In Royal David's City! That's the song that JM lead the solo in :)

Anyway, dear blog reader, I'm sorry I have to bore you with my weekly choir practice thing ;) I just wanna share the things that I've learnt and I hope to be a better chorister each time. I'm starting to really like the practices and enjoy the the stuff that we learnt!

My stomach's grumbling. I shall call my dad now so toodles :)

only the best

2009-12-11T01:53:00.004+08:00

I'm still up and waiting for the encore telecast of Today At The Games since I missed the show at 10pm last night (I was busy doing the Libera e-cards thing for Inna and Gen <3). Anyway, you can go to Inna's blog and see for yourself the card that she made. It's so adorable! :)

After making those cards, I did my music homework which almost killed me lol. I hate drawing treble clefs and I have so many exercises to do and I barely practised Alma Del Core. I did sing yesterday but I have a feeling that I sang it all wrong because Dad was laughing at me. Geez, I need some moral support here. And to make it worse, he thought I sounded like a ghost. I beg to differ, you should listen to him sing. It's like a baby bawling + girls screeching + an elephant moaning (okay I've never heard an elephant moan but whatever) all at once. Right, it's a little exaggerated but you get the point.

I wish I'm more musically-inclined. :(

By the way, I was reading Bloody London when this stupid salesperson came knocking at the door. Okay, no. He practically was banging for it to be opened or something. So, I yanked it open and put on my grumpiest face ever and apparently, I scared him because LOL, HE ACTUALLY STAMMERED, "ERM, OKAY, NEVER MIND". And he picked up his stuff and left hurriedly (I would love to say he scampered away but I've done enough exaggerating, yes?). That's right, I can be very unfriendly if I want to :)

Did anyone watch the swimming finals at the SEA Games on Channel 5? I thought Singapore did great, we won 5 Gold medals and totally pwn-ed the whole thing lol and it's only the first day of competition. YAY GO TEAM SINGAPORE! Can't wait to see today's events, hope we can repeat yesterday's victory :)

Sigh, I have to get back on my music theory or it'll never get done. :( And I pray that this Saturday's practice will not be so tough because I have not practised sight reading and I know I'm so dead.

what you see

2009-12-09T21:31:00.003+08:00

If this is not hot, you better poke your eyes with a fork or something.

This is what you call a hunk. And, boy, is he hot or what. And no, that's not a question because DUH, HE IS HOT. Hmm, but I'm still not crazy over the Twilight saga thing :) It's just Taylor/Jacob, sorry ;)

TEAM JACOB, OBVIOUSLY.

a million ways

2009-12-09T18:41:00.005+08:00

I am testing out these new functions that blogger has and I think they're pretty cool. I hope they don't hang the system though, it took me almost 15 minutes to log in a couple of hours ago! Okay, I'm using a different font now so it may look a little weird but whatever, I like ;) There are lots of things that I need to do and I don't get why I'm blogging/facebooking all the time :).

Finish Bloody London
Think of a name for my limegreen journal
Start writing in my limegreen journal :)
Write down the ideas for my new story
Set up a date with the juniors to give them my notes/books
Practise Alma Del Core
Buy new earpices
Read up on the music theory stuff
Go to the beach with Tan Ying! <3

I think I've been watching too many Libera/Il Divo/Celine Dion videos and so their songs keep replaying in my head. Like, right now, the song Rest In Peace keeps going on and on, especially the part where Tom leads the solo. That part is simply amazing and I love how his voice sounded so smooth and lovely.

I do not own any of these pictures, courtesy goes to all the various fansites :)
This is Tom Cully, by the way, and he's my favourite soloist in Libera (besides JM, of course)

And I must find a way to change my language settings to the UK English. It bloody annoys me when the stupid red line keeps appearing for the spelling difference. And I'll be thinking whether I spelled the word correctly or not and I'll be checking the dictionary and everything (I know it's lame) which equals to a waste of time. :(

Oh and by the way, I changed the comments setting and that means you can only comment on the posts labelled Libera/other musicians and not my personal posts (I know some posts have a bit of personal stuff). I did that because I know there are some Libera fans who visit my blog and I wanna hear their opinions too! But be warned, I moderate all my comments ever since that "Anonymous" thingie (you can ask me about it, maybe I'll tell you?) and I received one negative comment about a Libera boy (I deleted that comment). So, basically, please think first before commenting because this blog is my personal one and I, a Libera fan, will not tolerate any bad comments about anything (especially about Libera) written here.

Hmm, I think I shall go and read Bloody London, it's a really good book! ;)

a place in heaven

2009-12-09T03:12:00.009+08:00

Well, it's about 3.15am and I just can't seem to fall asleep. And what do I do when I cannot sleep? Watch Libera videos, of course :) Anyway, I was watching the videos and playing Cafe World on facebook and I suddenly felt like blogging about my favourite Libera videos.

I have a lot of favourites, actually. It depends on my mood, really, because sometimes I feel like watching a music video, other times, I just feel like watching those behind-the-scenes videos and laugh at the boys' antics and stuff like that. But today, I'll share with you one of my favourite Libera songs, Love and Mercy. (I posted a video of the song in my previous entry: smiling & obsessed)

I really love this song because of Tom's and Josh's harmonisation from 0:51 to 0:58. The combination of both voices (my favourite soloists too!) was simply stunning, like they're made to do solos together or something. Okay, I know that sounds gay but you know what I mean ;) And I simply love the lower harmonies done by Sam from 1:02 to 1:21.

There is also another video that I really like and it's this video of Sanctus. And I really like this version because Sam sings the last "Sanctus" at the end, which is so cool since he does not get a lot of solos :) And his voice is really good, too!

My favourite part is the part that showed the newer boys at 1:38 to 1:57. Kavana (his mouth shape!), Little James, Freddie and Flynn looked so expressive while singing and really adorable. I think the younger especially Kavana and Flynn have really interesting mouth shapes as they sang their vowels. ;)

the pages unfold

2009-12-08T22:20:00.016+08:00

Honestly, stop it. Stop being such a whiny bitch and get on with life. And stop your bloody ridiculous story already. I absolutely hate it. You know, you are so bloody selfish, thinking of nothing but yourself. Let me emphasise that, you are selfish. You think you're sacrificing so effing much but you know what? Stop it. It's disgusting and absolutely making me puke.

You are childish beyond words, your behaviour deserves all the bloody swearwords in the world. No wonder he does not reciprocate your "love", no wonder he does not care, no wonder he'd rather be with her than with you. Clearly, you have a very twisted knowledge of love. Love does not equal possession, you do not compare your life with some drama serial because guess what, it's NOT the same and it will never be. Face it, you're delusional.

And I question your "love" because if you truly love him, you will never try to hurt someone that he loves because that will hurt him too, wouldn't it? Now, if hurting someone that you "love deeply" does not make you selfish, I don't know what is. And you know what you should do? Give up. Give up, okay. It will be better for everyone, yes, even for you. The more you hold on, the more you'll get hurt and how do I know? Because I've been through it before.

It may hurt a lot, but time heals everything. You just have to let go and look ahead because life has a lot more to offer. And I'm telling you to give it up because I don't want to see you ridiculing yourself any further. People are laughing at you or if they aren't they're totally cursing you inside out. Aren't you ashamed?

Stop being so freaking juvenile and grow up. Life is not a fairytale okay, admit it, it sucks sometimes so just take it in your stride and move on. You think what you're doing is so impressive, well I don't think so. I think it's stupid, shameless, disgusting and it totally puts me off.

You are a disgusting piece of shit, you and your stories.

edited: I've changed some words to so that this post will be less... crude? ;)

that green balloon

2009-12-06T18:36:00.002+08:00

If you come a little closer, maybe I'll tell you everything. I'll tell you all that you need to know, why my heart hurts so much I feel like I'll die everytime. I'll tell you how I spent the whole night crying because your words cut me really deep. I'll tell you that everytime I tried closing my eyes, your face appears and I'll be sleepless for the night. I'll tell you that I still love you so much no matter what you did to me. I'll tell you, I'll tell you, I'll tell you...

loving every minute

2009-12-05T17:26:00.006+08:00

I never fully grasp the meaning of the word "moodless". When people say they're moodless, I don't get it. That's a non-existent word, by the way, so I never gave it much thought and took it seriously. But, somehow, right now, I feel moodless. Like, I feel nothing. I don't feel happy, I don't feel sad, I cannot bring myself to smile neither cry. Strange, isn't it? I feel okay, but it's not exactly the best feeling to have, I must say. Never mind, it's just one of those days, where I feel strange things and decide to blog about it. I'm weird, take it or leave it. ;)

Choir practice today was a little bit harder than last week. I realised that I still have the same problem, not daring to sing out in front of people. My voice trembles, my pitching goes haywire and I feel like shit. Nevertheless, it was still an interesting practice and I did have fun with the rest of the seniors :) I think I need to work a lot harder and focus even more on my music if I want to sing better next week. And I must really catch up on sight reading super fast because everyone's so good already, I feel so stupid. Plus, I still have to study my music and make notes and do the solfege for Alma Del Core (that's the Italian song that we're learning) and practice!!! Mr Chen gave us this little booklet to keep track of our music progress thingie and I need to look at it again and revise what I've missed.

Went to the library today and I feel pleased about it. I borrowed three books, two thrillers and one romance (?). Okay, it's a chick-lit book or maybe something closer to that. I don't really read romance because some of the parts can be quite...UHMMM. Never mind, I just don't want to go into the details, it's too adult and depressing and I still have the innocence of youth lol. :) It's called Six Reasons To Stay A Virgin (I know, I know) by Louise Harwood. I love reading books by British writers, they have a better sense of humour :) The two thrillers that I borrowed are The Darkness Inside by John Rickards and Bloody London by Reggie Nadelson. I'm reading Bloody London first, if you want to know, and it's a pretty good read even within the first 10 pages.

I'm off to read now, so bye! On a side note, maybe I should put up a book list on the books I that I read every month?

in her own special way

2009-12-04T22:47:00.003+08:00

TGIF (I know it's coming to an end) because tomorrow is Saturday and you know what that means? It's choir practice! Alright, it's not really a choir since there's less than 10 people in the group, so it's more appropriate to call it an ensemble. But, whatever, I'm really excited for tomorrow's practice because Mr Chen will give me the scores to that Caccini's composition and that means I can practise at home which equals to something to do! :) Hehe, I'm just so happy that I'll be singing tomorrow so I'm smiling really wide now like WHEEEE!

Anyway, I hope we'll be doing a bit of theory and I really wanna ask Josh about the music stuff again. I've been reading the music theory text for a bit and I quite understand most of the things said but I still have some doubts. But apart from that, I wanna sing again! I've yet to learn the whole song as I only sang a bit last week with Xiuhui's and Joyce's help. I hope we'll learn a new song, though, that'll be so exciting! Oh and I think Mr Chen will want to hear me sing tomorrow so I hope I'll be able to revise a bit of the song with the seniors in case he really asks me to sing.

By the way, I hope to make a trip to the library really soon. I must really borrow some books and read to occupy myself during the holidays apart from going online all the time. And I must think of new ideas for my non-existent story which I've been thinking about a lot since before the holidays. I mean, I've been wanting to continue A Story For Me (this is a short story that I wrote and some of you may have read it) but my brain's totally rusty. No new ideas + I have a feeling my language skills are getting worse. So I must really read some books, hopefully to have some inspiration.

I've been watching lots of cartoons on my mobile at night before I sleep lately. That's the great thing about having a mobile that has a wi-fi function, I can go online anywhere without lugging my laptop around. And I can always watch Youtube videos in my bed and tweet like crazy or something like that. By the way, I think Tom and Jerry is pretty funny, I was laughing in bed as I watched them last night. :)

I shall do some music theory stuff now, so toodles! :)

unearth the gold

2009-12-03T19:17:00.015+08:00

This is Urs Buhler, Sebastian Izambard, David Miller and Carlos Marin, all from different countries (thus different cultural backgrounds) but together, they form Il Divo, an absolutely fantastic and talented group of singers :) And it totally does not hurt that they are such good-lookers too! My favourite is Sebastian because I like his tone the best among the four and he's really cute (he's French, just so you know)! *swoons*

By the way, Urs is a Swiss while David comes from USA. Carlos, as you might have guessed from his name, is from Spain.

Il Divo is absolutely stunning and their voices are simply beautiful. I've heard of them some time back but I never take the time to get to know them better because I was not that interested in that kind of music. But I suddenly had the urge to listen to something different, something that is not Taylor Swift, Jesse McCartney, The Jonas Brothers or the rest of the popular/mainstream kinda music thus Libera, Celine Dion, Declan Galbraith and now Il Divo :)

Here's a video of them singing Regresa A Mi (a Spanish version of Unbreak My Heart). Absolutely stunning.

skip and run

2009-12-02T02:32:00.003+08:00

I cannot sleep so here I am. And by the way, I've stayed up way later than this during the O levels revision period so expect more super late/early blog entries from yours truly :)

I can't think of anything interesting to blog about so here are 10 facts about me.

#1- When I brush my teeth, I must look at the mirror. I must also look after I brush and I will smile to see if my teeth's clean.

#2- I get pissed pretty easily, it's just that I never show it because I hate to be in a bad mood. Tan Ying says I am very scary when I'm pissed because I'll ignore everyone and be very silent. Those who know me well will know that I'm a loud person :)

#3- I absolutely hate crying.

#4- When I don't like someone, I will be freakass obvious about it. And I'm very good at giving code names (Tan Ying & Yoke Ching probably knows all of them!).

#5- I must listen to a song before I sleep. When I feel super sleepy, I'll put away my music and sleep.

#6- I like bananas. (I know what you're gonna say, my friends. Save your breath!)

#7- I am very afraid of being dehydrated (because it will show on my face-PIMPLES!) so I drink a lot of water everyday. If I feel like I have not been drinking a lot, I will immediately panic and rush to find water.

#8- I have never touched poker cards in my life. I don't gamble/drink/smoke/do drugs either. In fact, I am very strongly against all of them. (this is probably due to my religion)

#9- I sing first soprano in the choir.

#10- I hate loud, sudden noises because I hate getting startled. I'll feel as though my heart will drop out and have this funny hammering feeling in my chest and I do not like it one bit!

Alright. There you have it. 10 facts about me. Till next time!

pages and pages of emotions

2009-12-01T22:00:00.006+08:00

Alright, I'm just really bored now so I'll post some pictures of my journals and give a little preview about each one :)

This is my first journal, Musings From The Heart, and I had this from 23rd Dec 2006 to 15 May 2007. Among all the journals, this was the one that took the most effort because I was quite insecure and had problems expressing myself. Come on, I was 12-13 years old at the time, so don't disparage me too much :)

My second journal, Syafiqah's Diary (I know the name was just... like -.-), was the one that held lots of memories. Memories of what, you may ask. Well, I'm not telling and if you really wanna know, burgle my house and steal this ;) I had this from 19 May 2007 to 31 Dec 2007.

Diaries Are Private was the one that I wrote the least (as in, really short updates) in which was mainly because of laziness. I wrote in this from 01 Jan 2008 to 13 May 2008.

This is my fourth journal, Finding The Right Words (I know the words "Finding Him" are in freakass huge prints but whatever) and I had this from 21 May 2008 to 6 Nov 2008. This journal has some depressing stuff and other thingies that are too crude to be mentioned here. And this is also my cheapest notebook, only cost $2?

A Thousand Words of Emotions is my favourite journal so far because I recorded some pretty interesting stuff (like the Japan Exchange Programme) and it also holds some of the most memorable stuff in my life. I had this from 7 Nov 2008 to 12 Jan 2009. I wrote a lot in this journal thus the short "lifespan" :)

This is the prettiest journal in terms if decor and my handwriting. I don't know but whenever I write in this journal, I become very conscious of my penmanship and really took the effort to write nicely and everything. This is called The Bitch Book (I know, I know) and I had it from 23 Jan 2009 to 1 Mar 2009. This journal also held the most original (I mean the number of poems I wrote) poems and short stories. And by the way, I bought this in Japan :)

This is my seventh journal, Beyond Words and I had it from 13 March 2009 to just now :) I wrote the most in this book with multiple entries per day. It also held quite a number of memories that happened recently and some other really private things.

TADAA! All my journals :)

I have not thought of a name for my new limegreen journal but like each new journal, I hope to improve on my grammar and my writing style. And of course, do lots of self-reflection and be a better person every time.

You should keep a journal, it's therapeutic lol :)

shining through

2009-12-01T17:58:00.006+08:00

This is HOTNESS TTM!

Aww, don't you think Nathan Hartono is such a hottie? And he's only 18 and he's already got 3 albums. He's so talented and so yummy-looking! :)

blisters on my fingers

2009-12-01T12:20:00.006+08:00

I slept at around 4am this morning and was rudely awaken by neighbours fighting outside. Let me emphasise on the word "rudely", thank you. I was so annoyed, I was on the verge of calling the police but then I thought that this will create trouble later so I let it pass. Why was I annoyed? Because I had a dream about JM, that's why. URGHHHH. I absolutely hate it when I'm being woken up especially in the middle of a good dream. It doesn't happen in real life, so just let me freaking sleep in peace and dream about it, for heaven's sake!

Anyway, I thought today will be a good day to start writing again so after this post, I'm gonna sit down, make some Milo and write a good long entry in my journal. It's been ages since I've written in that rainbow-coloured notebook and it only has about two blank pages left so that means I can start writing in my new limegreen journal! Exciteddddd like craaaazzzzyyy now! I think I'll have a lot to write/reflect about what with all the recent happenings. (don't worry, nothing serious happened)

You might wanna know why have a blog and a journal at the same time? Both serve the same purpose of expressing how you feel, jotting down the daily happenings of life and the likes so why do both? Well, for me personally, blogging is like a hobby, a past-time. I blog when I feel like it but I don't necessarily pour all of my heart into it. How can I, with possibly so many people reading it? I don't know if my blog's popular or not, but I do know that some of my friends read this blog just like I read theirs :) A girl gotta have her own privacy, you know.

Occasionally, I do blog about things that bothers me, stuff that makes you a step closer in knowing my real emotions but usually, it's just a place for me to rant (like now) and share my thoughts without exposing myself too much. Now, my journals (I say journals, because I have exactly 7 journals so far) are vastly different from this blog. The words I used are way more crude and I talked about a lot of things that you'll never imagine me to be saying. When I read back, I noticed my language starts to change, my style of writing to be bolder.

I don't write in my journal like, every day but when I do I can take up about an hour, filling about 3-4 pages with my rants and musings and everything else. I think if my journals were ever to be made into a book, people will definitely think differently of me. But don't worry, the stuff I wrote in them, were only for that moment which means, if I say I hate you in my journal, it does not mean I hate you now, Maybe at the time, I was pissed and was just letting off steam.

By the way, I don't hate anyone now (okay, this is a little lie) but I bet those of you who know me a bit better will be able to understand me and read between the lines :)

Alright, enough blogging, I'm gonna make some Milo nowwwww and write! Maybe, someday I'll post up pictures of my journals and list out all their names (yes, I name my journals)?

Till then :)

way up high

2009-11-30T19:12:00.019+08:00

I know, I know. A new blog template. I'm fickle okay, very fickle. But I guess it just bothers me that my previous blog template was way too plain so I scoured the Net again and found this. Yes, it looks very pink but I think it looks nice. Not too elaborate and definitely not too plain. What's up with the pink, you may ask. Actually, I've always liked pink. It's like so natural for me to be attracted to pink. The girl in me I guess.

But my favourite colour is still limegreen, okay.

And it also bothers me that whenever I blog certain words like "favourite", "colour" and "splendour" or any other word that differ with the American spelling, the bloody red line will appear. It annoys the hell out of me, like ARGHHHH, you know. If English is the universal language, then why the spelling difference?

Anyway, Gen's leaving for Australia soon and aww, I'll miss chatting with her about Libera and the boys and how awesome Ben/Josh is or how amazing a treble Tom was. I guess it's still kinda hard for me to accept that Tom will not be singing anymore solos. I'm so used to hearing his strong, clear treble voice, so used to hearing his descant notes and definitely so used to seeing him taking the spotlight in the middle of the choir formation, singing a solo. But now, it's all changing and I'm also kind of looking forward to the new generation of Libera with the likes of Kavana, Flynn and Stefan. Oh and of course, Jakob who recently got a few prominent roles at the Philippines concert last month.

And I'm definitely looking forward to new soloists like Little Freddie (he is so tiny and adorable) and James M. I heard they totally melted the hearts of the Filipinos with Prayer. I also hope to hear Daniel and his solo in Stay With Me and I really wanna hear more solos from Ben! If you don't already know, I was not really a fan of his voice until O Sanctissima, which totally blew me away. His voice still has that distinctive "Ben" quality but it's definitely more lovable for me now.

Here are some pictures of the boys, in case you don't know who I'm talking about :) all these pictures are not mine and more can be found at Libera360/Libera Dreams click and zoom, I suppose?

Stefan, Daniel and Freddie

Ben, Jakob and James M. (there are two James in Libera)

And this is Kavana and Flynn, scold yourself if you don't know, I blogged about them quite a lot :)

I can't wait for the new album!

I know I've been blogging a lot about Libera recently, I have no idea why either. Hmm, maybe if something more interesting happens in my life, you'll see some change. In the mean time, let's hear some of Libera and smileeeeee like wheeee!!! :)

share the love

2009-11-30T02:53:00.014+08:00

It's about 3am and I can't sleep so I thought I'd spread some Libera love to my blog readers. Here's Gloria :)

This is my favourite song since... I first heard it. I love the expressions on the boys when they sing. I think even if you're deaf and you can hear nothing, I bet if you just look at them sing, you'll be so intrigued that you'll wish that you can hear their beautiful voices. I love how Kavana, Freddie and Flynn sings so expressively from 0:18 to 0:33. And how Alex always manages that smile whenever he sings (3:01) and of course, who can ever miss Kavana's head movements from 2:21 onwards?

I think this song was done in grand splendour and I love how the dynamics varied. Not to mention the harmonisation of the lower voices and the trebles. The descant note at the end was really amazing and just wow.

Well, if you really wanna know, just click and watch. Words can't describe how amazing and talented these singers are.

Oh and by the way, I have edited my previous blog entries and added some videos. You might wanna take a look?

smiling and obsessed
drugs and addiction
just found
another happiness

These are the the titles of the posts that I had edited, I know they sound weird. I just have this thing about giving my blog entries titles. They are totally random and may or may not be related to the topic at all (usually it's the latter). But whatever, just click on the titles and view those videos :)

basking in nothingness

2009-11-29T22:05:00.008+08:00

I think I'll stick to this blog template. I'm tired of changing, I guess. And now I know that I don't do colours, I'd rather have a blog with plain, boring colours, like me. Okay, maybe not. Maybe I'm just looking for simplicity. Hmm, what do you think?

I didn't do much today except laze around and doing a bit of the music theory exercises. I think if this goes on, I'll probably die of boredom and then you'll never see Syafiqah Hamzah ever again. I reckon it's all Dad's fault for not allowing me to work. Others are definitely working and doing something productive with their lives and what am I doing?

Eating, sleeping, singing, writing, doodling, watching tv, replaying Libera songs, re-watching Libera videos, blogging, reading other people's blogs, facebooking, attempting to run, doing music homework and other unproductive activities. Not that any of the mentioned are unproductive, but still?!

Oh and by the way, the quote above which says "I will love you more than me and more than yesterday" is not an original, meaning I did not write it. Just so you know, it's a line from Libera's New Day, which is a pretty nice song. I'll change the blog descriptor everyday so that it'll be a different Libera lyric each time :)

edited: At the side, you'll see a different lyric each time from various singers. ;)

the little smiles

2009-11-28T13:50:00.003+08:00

The choir practice with the alumnis today was great. I really enjoyed myself despite the fact that there were only 7 of us there (me, Joyce, Xiu Hui, Ben, Shuai Xun, Josh and Mr Chen). It was certainly something that I'd look forward to every week now, I guess.

I was a bit nervous about singing in front of them at first, my voice was left untrained for at least 5 months and I was afraid that I would sound terrible. But alas, I was actually quite okay and I didn't really mess up or anything. I guess I was so eager to learn new stuff that I forgot about my fear and just sang what I had to sing. It was not that bad, Mr Chen only made us sing some scales and do some vocal exercises with vowels and everything.

I learnt a new song today, sorry I forgot the title but it's Italian. Cool, huh? The song was not that bad but has quite a few semi-tone thingie which is quite hard to master (but with lots of practice, I'm sure I'll do fine). Oh and by the way, I found another Caccini's composition. I must really start remembering the titles of the songs but I think it's in Latin. The first one I found was Ave Maria which was Tom's version or something really similar(this is not my choir but it's the closest that I can find). It's a bit different but still wonderful.

Singing makes me feel so excited and I really feel happy when I did the scales and everything. It felt like home and now I fully understand how the Libera boys feel when they express their feelings about singing. It's not only about the songs, the words or the melody of the song. It's just how you connect with other singers and your own sense of musicality that makes it so special. When I sing, I certainly feel free and relaxed and like I've accomplished something.

I guess it's the same for all types if activities that others enjoy. Some would say that dancing makes them feel free, others would be playing musical instruments or maybe just something simple like writing. I think having something to fall back on when you feel pressured like listening to music or doing something that you totally feel at ease helps you to unwind and just relax.

For me, personally, it's writing that makes me feel this way. Now that I've discovered my love for singing, it just adds on to the list of the things I'd do to unwind. I am really glad I joined the choir, it's definitely something I'd do for a very long time to come :) It's hard to explain but singing just gives me this special feeling, I think I blogged about this in my older post: a single wish.

Am I coming back for next week's practice? OBVIOUSLY YES!

all jumbled and crazy

2009-11-27T10:55:00.004+08:00

It seems as though I'm living someone else's life. I can't think properly, I'm doubting myself all the time and I feel like my face is going to break from all the smiles that I've been faking.

jump into it

2009-11-27T02:16:00.003+08:00

I keep telling myself that it's okay. But, clearly, history has repeated itself. I'm more than disappointed, possibly devastated by your behaviour. I find you so ridiculous. You hate confrontations, I know that, but even standing up for yourself, you do it so reluctantly. You'd rather walk away and live in that little life of yours where everything is always smooth-sailing and ends up in victory.

Grow up, you know life's not like that. For once, have some heart and do something for yourself without being such a coward.

cleared out

2009-11-22T10:02:00.001+08:00

This is the amount of files/folders that I've accumulated to file those horrible worksheets for four years of my secondary school life. There's actually about 4 more thick files that's missing containing my Geography notes :)

This is the amount of textbooks I have. Click and zoom, I suppose, if you wanna know what I had been cramming for the past 3/4 months (some of the books are irrelevant, though)

Alright, so I finally cleared my books and everything else after procrastinating for about a week. Just so you know, I woke up, specially at 7am to accomplish this mission. Please look at the calender and note that today is a Sunday, thank you. :)

I am so tired now, I'm gonna treat myself to some yummy yoghurt so toodles :)

Oh and I still have to pack for camp. Damn.

green and squishy

2009-11-21T21:05:00.003+08:00

Finally, my dad allowed me to go for class chalet and camp! I am so happy like whoo :) I missed all my lovely classmates and all my bitches and everyone in choir. Alicia says she has something to tell Amanda and I, wow, can't wait!

I definitely can't wait for camp. I'm gonna see Tan Ying and Edelweiss and Celia and Denice and Ophelia and all the people that I missed sooooooooo much! Tan Ying and I definitely have a lot to catch up on, it's been ages since I see her face-to-face and talk like and hang out. Which is a bit strange since I just talked to her on the phone a few days ago. Oh, I miss that woman :)

Edel mentioned in her blog that she's not looking forward to camp. Well, dear, you should be happy because I AM COMING!!!

Oh man, I'm so happy right now so that might explain all the exclamation marks and smiley faces. It's been a long time since I felt so happy what with all the stupid Os and my dad and his crazy temper.

And by the way, I cut my hair. And it was horrible because the person was totally deaf. I just said I want my hair to be shorter and thinner and you know what he did? He gave me bangs. Yes, frigging bangs. Oh God. Don't worry when you see me, I will cleverly style my hair so that it will look normal and not so bang-y.

Can't wait for Monday! :)

make you happy

2009-11-21T00:01:00.001+08:00

HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY HURIL!
Huril & me! :)

that cobbled path

2009-11-20T08:36:00.006+08:00

Whatever that happened, I want you to know that I'm here for you. Forever and always, remember that while a million boys can make my heart flutter with joy and make me feel so loved, you beat all of them, hands down. I want you to trust me, what I'm going to do, may not be to your liking but, believe me, I have your best interests at heart.

That is why it hurts me to see you like this, I want to help. But let me.

dancing wild

2009-11-19T07:32:00.004+08:00

It's one of those days again where I feel the uneasiness and I don't know why. Os are over, aren't they, why do I feel like this? Sometimes, it's hard to understand myself. I don't understand what's going on and it seems as though no amount of self-reflection can bring me to the right path again. Is this retribution, for all that I've done? Is He making me feel like this, is he letting me onto something bigger?

I can be happy one moment and then crying the next. I can be loving everyone this minute and then the next, I just feel like everyone should just die and leave me alone. it's hard to say why I feel like that. Maybe I'm just going mental or maybe I just am like that. But it's not my style to wallow in self-pity. If you know me, you'd know that one of the things I absolutely hate to do is cry. Especially in front of people. These days, I've been crying on the inside so people won't see. Their words cut through me but I still hold my chin up and smile because I like to be strong.

But my heart can only take so much, my eyes can only hold so much tears. What if I can't hold it back anymore? I hate losing control, that's the thing. I am a very proud girl, I hate making mistakes, I hate screwing up and even if I don't show it, I do hate myself a lot. I have so many shortcomings, so many flaws and in my eyes, I'm ugly and stupid. I can take all the insults from everyone else, but when it comes down to only myself, I can't take it.

Sometimes, I wonder why I'm being like this. I ask Him why, I never got an answer. You know, He may not answer you directly but somehow He makes you feel at peace instantly. That's why my love for Him never change although I do admit, I'm not exactly the best Muslim in the world. He's always there listening to me and when I needed someone.

I have been up almost all night, this feeling gnawing at the base of my heart, disabling me to close my eyes and drift off to LaLaLand. I keep thinking and thinking and it seems as if my brain will burst with the capacity of my thoughts. When I stop thinking, I imagine and that's when it got worse. Imagination is good in small doses, too much of it, just makes you wanna pull your hair and scream. I was drifting in and out, constantly awaken by the smallest things, the whirring of the fan, the sounds of engines outside or even the sound of my own breathing.

As usual, I have a lot more to say but I guess this is it for now. The continuation of this post will be done in my journal. I can't blog too much of my thoughts, they're too crude for the mind.

But to end this off, I wish for everything to slow down, let me take a breath properly and just smile genuinely without having to please anyone.I want to do something and the reason must be because I want to do it and not anyone else.

what was done

2009-11-18T18:24:00.004+08:00

I absolutely cannot stand it when bloggers whose command of a language is not good (be it English or Malay) use big words (possibly those they've just learnt) like nobody's business. I know it's good to use the words that you've just learnt, put it into practice and everything but please check on the usage of words too. By using all the words, do you think it'll make you sound smarter? Maybe yes, to those who don't really understand but what about others?

I know I ranted about this in my previous blog entry: yet another one, but I just can't help but talk about this again. It's so disturbing. I mean it's okay to use simple words, especially when you have not grasp the full meaning of the word or the full understanding of the word usage. Don't do things you're unsure of and make a fool out of yourself. I know my language skills are far from perfect but still?!

And it's especially worse if it's in Malay. I know it's easier to type in short form but do you have to change the spellings of words, making it even longer? Kalau bangsa kita sendiri tidak menghormati bahasa Melayu, bagaimana kita hendak maju? Susah sangat ke, untuk menaip dengan ejaan yang betul dan struktur ayat yang sempurna? I feel so embarrassed reading these blogs, like they've done wrong to the language. Don't get me wrong, I am not that good in the Malay Language but I do have basic skills and I do know what is correct grammar and what is not.

I would not have gotten my A1 otherwise.

straight ahead

2009-11-17T07:34:00.004+08:00

Take it or leave it. If you hate me, fuck off, get a life and stop being a hypocrite.

and slowly it forms

2009-11-16T04:50:00.006+08:00

Maybe it's time for me, too. Maybe it's time to let go. Maybe it's time to finally be free. Strange, since I thought my freedom was 3 days ago. It's never too late, isn't it. Why subject myself to the pain when I can smile?

thinking of tears

2009-11-14T08:35:00.006+08:00

It's not fair okay. Stop doing that already. It hurts me as much as it hurts you so why are we playing this fucking stupid game where everybody loses and everyone just ends up crying.

And don't start on my language, I don't need another asshole to mess up my life already.

Sorry for the rant, I'm just so pissed. It's been crazy these few days, me sleeping at 6-7am in the morning and waking up 3-4pm in the day. Dad's been yelling his head off at me so that's why I'm up now doing nothing and rotting in my anger and disappointment fuck. It's like, even if I wake up early, he won't know because he's at work so I don't know what's the fuss about. He hates it when I go out so I don't see the point in planning my holidays. I don't even know if he'll let me go to the class BBQ/chalet. I can just walk away but I hate fighting with him. Seriously, what is the world coming to.

Am I supposed to rot at home and do nothing? What am I, a doll? I do like staying at home, really, but I do want to go out and breathe some air. Not stuck in this misery hole and look at my laptop and my books. You always take it out on me. Everything is always my fault. You expect me to act like a grown-up but guess what? I don't want to. I want to act like my age, having fun and everything. And by the way, why should I? You're acting like a baby yourself, blaming others for your shortcomings and being unreasonable and stubborn.

Sometimes, I wonder if what will happen if I die. Will you be happier? You won't have to worry or care anymore. You won't have to put up with my sharp tongue and obstinacy. You will care only about her, the perfect child, the child who listens to you (but not anyone else) and does not talk back like I do. And yes, you can definitely go back to that screwed life of yours without me intefering at all, you can do anything you want without hearing rude comments from me.

I think you need me, just as much I need you. You just don't want to admit it.

Ah, fuck life. I'm so tired, I'm not going to care anymore. What for, if I'm just going to get hurt. What for, if nobody's gonna listen.

another happiness

2009-11-12T18:19:00.009+08:00

What can I say, Libera has performed again, this time with the new song,O Sanctissima. It's an absolutely beautiful song and the soloist (everyone says it's Ben Philipp and I agree) has done a splendid job. The song combines the lower part and the higher part towards the end of the song and I'm telling you, it sounded so amazing. Libera should really do this more often, letting the lower voices sing out more because the harmony is just beautiful. O Sanctissima is one example but there's also other Libera songs that do this like Gloria and Angelis.

I cannot wait for the new album to come! I hope they will have new soloists cos I've been dying to hear solos from people like Flynn, Kavana and I definitely want to hear Daniel's Stay With Me. I heard it was awesome at the Phillippines Concert Tour.

Anyway, I just caught My Sister's Keeper and it was so good! It was different from the book itself but fantastic nevertheless. Jodi Picoult is a damn good writer and I wish they'd do a movie on Salem Falls or Nineteen Minutes. Those two are also quite movie-material :)

I shall blog another time so toodles :)

insanely smiling wide

2009-11-11T21:58:00.007+08:00

So. The big Os are finally over. What does it feel like, really? Well, to be honest, there's no actual word to describe it. It's just these feeling of freedom + excitement + a bit of worry (for the results) all mixed together and gives you a light-headed sensation and make you wanna jump with joy and as Quin would put it, do a heel click ;) I can't freaking believe I do not have to study anymore for at least 2 months and that I've cleared one of the biggest hurdles in my life. I really hope my results will be okay!

Anyway, I'll definitely miss seeing some people and cramming with them, hours before the exams. The firm handshakes with Atiqah, Quin and Amanda and all the encouragements and phonecalls in the middle of the night from all my other friends. I still remember thinking as I did my English paper essay "This is it, this is the real thing, no more mess-up" and that keeps me going throughout the entire 26th Oct to 11 Nov. Last minute revision do help, but just a little bit. It's best if you start at least 2 months before the Os with consistent revision throughout the whole year.

Because, really, the O levels will not be as hard as you think it will be. With preparation, confidence and a bit of faith, you can do it. I honestly think I'll blank out on one of the papers, worried that there'll be a paper that I'll completely flunk in (as in don't know how to do at all) but that never happened. Some papers were trickier (note the word, it's trickier meaning you still can do but it just takes lots of thinking) while majority are manageable with revision. No matter how easy the subject is, do study for it. It really does help. Especially in subjects like English and Science MCQs. You never know what these Cambridge people are thinking; you must always be prepared.

I am happy with how I did, confident for most of the papers but the feeling of worry is still there. Nevertheless, what's done cannot be undone so... let's just pray for the best, yah? To all my other graduating friends who are taking the papers tomorrow and Friday, good luck!

To the rest, LET'S GET THE BALL ROLLING, THE PARTY HAS BEGUN! :)

elation, never-ending

2009-11-11T09:12:00.004+08:00

Shall do a quick update before I get ready for school.

I am currently considering if I should delete my Twitter account and not have one at all. I thought one stalker was bad enough, now I have two. I really, really don't mind you reading my tweets but if you don't already know me in real life, please refrain from asking personal questions. If I have never talked to you before, discussed anything personal with you then do not assume I will start just because I added you on some social network or vice versa. In fact, don't even assume we're even friends. Have some dignity and self-respect and go find some real friends and ask them personal questions instead of asking me. I do not even know you.

Don't be a freak, okay?

Anyway, yesterday's Higher Malay papers were hard. Okay. They were hard. I am not kidding you so I'll most probably get grade C6 and below. Chances of me passing the subject is slim. Oh well, there goes my two bonus points. Life is so unfair.

Science paper later = last paper! Can't believe it's all gonna be over so soon. This proves that wishes do come true. :)

in believing

2009-11-10T00:45:00.003+08:00

I'm still up, with a cup of Milo and my Higher Malay worksheets and Malay dictionary, figuring out how not to die during the paper tomorrow.

Geography paper yesterday was okay. I totally blanked on the second question (on tourism) and the first question was just... what the hell? So I was left with no choice but to do questions 3 and 4 although I did not study Geography of Food. But luckily the GOF questions were just asking us to describe the graph so it was okay. The second question asked us to explain the variations in food consumption between DCs and LDCs and it was a total killer (because I didn't read the notes) so I answered it using common sense and from memory from Mrs Koh's lessons (lucky I paid attention during class). I am quite disappointed at the essay questions, it totally did not use any case studies that we've learned like the China and India case studies. So I memorised those for nothing. Annoying. I just hope I score in question 3 because it was on Industries and I actually studied that topic. Please, Cambridge examiners, just give me at least a B3.

Okay I gotta stop harping on Geography/past papers because I only have three papers left and it's no use moping about them anymore. I'm just put off by some people who are so complacent of getting As and then go around rubbing it at others' faces. And worse, some even go around predicting other people's failure. Like, shut up. You are not the Cambridge examiner neither are you God. So can you go away and stop being such an asshole and mind your own business!

Don't be too over-confident, if nothing goes as you had planned/had said, you'll only end up having to hide in shame.

into a wide grin

2009-11-09T03:49:00.008+08:00

For some reason, I was pissed and upset last night. Maybe it's due to the increasing panic at the fact that Geog's paper is gonna be the next day, or maybe it was just the fatigue that I was feeling. I was slamming things around, banging my table and I was close to tears for god knows what reason. So I went online, randomly reading other people's blogs and searching videos on Youtube and looking up Libera stuff. And these pictures made me smile.

Stefan, Flynn & James T.
Aww, looking at how wide Flynn's smile is made me smile too. He looked sweet!

Kavana & Flynn.
I know I posted this picture before in my previous blog entry: change, but when I saw this picture just now, I smiled too. Both of them looked so cute, it's no wonder fans are so in love with them!
Both these pictures are not mine and more can be found at Libera360.

I really wanna thank all the Libera fans who went to the PICC concert in Manila and the ones who went to the Cebu concert for sharing all these photos! If Libera comes to Singapore, rest assured I'll take a gazillion pictures and share them with you too :) Plus, I'll write a whole post about the concert, etc and share my experience with the whole world. That is, if they come to Singapore.

I am seriously so worried for the Human Geography paper tomorrow (or later, rather). During prelims, I only scored a 66% which brought my whole grade down to a B3 which was quite disappointing since I was aiming for an A. I really hope that the paper will not be too hard or come out weird questions that are un-attempt-able, if that makes sense. Anyway, while I was studying, I found this drawing, possibly done by Bernice.

Cute, eh?

Anyway, I'm turning in now. My head is throbbing and if I don't sleep now, I'll die of a massive headache rather than a doing the paper itself (though I think I will die from doing the paper). Exam starts at 8am! *gasps*

Alright, wish me luck! :)

excitement and anticipation

2009-11-08T15:14:00.005+08:00

Knowing that O levels is gonna end this Wednesday makes me so excited! The thought of staying up late not looking at my notes or books, sleeping till the wee hours of the morning, not at all worrying if I'm going to be late for anything or even the thought of finally being able to do all the things I used to enjoy like reading makes me... quiver with excitement and anticipation. I really,really cannot wait for this to be over. Get my life back on track and just be myself again.

I think I'm gonna indulge in writing or reading. It may sounds boring to you but it's definitely exciting to me! I'm definitely going to finish up A Song For Me (or least continue the story) and start on a new one. I can't wait. Oh and by the way, I'm nearly done with my 7th journal and I'm excited to start on my 8th. My journals are the ultimate bitch-books/top secret/damn original poems/stories or ideas so they're full of my writings and scribbles and whatever crap that I'm thinking at the moment. What you're reading now is like... a 1/100 of what it'll look like in my journals?

Anyway, my next journal will be limegreen! Whoots, can't wait! :)

I'm only updating because someone was bored and asked me to post something up so yeah that's the reason I blogged. There's not much going on with my life,really. Just the freaking mugging which is driving me up the wall and taking the life out of me. And I've definitely been listening to Libera even more now, practically singing the songs off by heart. If you must know, the best song to listen to while studying is Orinoco Flow, it's so catchy and make you wanna sing along, especially in the middle with Josh's and Michael V's solo. Love and Mercy is not bad, Tom's voice make you wanna melt again and again. Seriously, that guy's amazing.

You know, as I'm blogging this, I'm listening to Angelis, the very song that I hope the current Libera will do because it's such a damn nice song. Another old song that I wish they'd do is New Day. That song is so good and deserves all the thumbs-up in the world. I wish Vox would do these kinds of songs if we ever run out of guys. Actually, guys are a rare species and if Vox decides to ever go SSAA, I hope Mr Chen will let us do Sanctus or something.

Okay, I'm not even gonna sing with the choir anymore so I don't even know why I'm typing this. Oh man, I miss choir terribly! Lucky, Joshua and Joyce asked me to join Sonophilics (alumni choir) or else I don't think I'll ever get to sing again.

Oh and yes, the thing that I'm looking forward to after Os is... to sing with Sonophilics!

Alright, that's it for now. I gotta go and mug for my Geography which I hope will be as manageable as the first paper. And yes, do some Higher Malay.

Oh, the horror.

follow me

2009-11-05T16:03:00.005+08:00

I don't mind you reading my tweets and my blog without me knowing. But do you have to go around and tell people what I tweet about. If you're unhappy, just tell me. You don't have to be so sneaky and keep checking my tweets. Asshole. Why must people like you exist? It's like, go get a freaking life and get your own twitter account please. And do follow me like any normal person would. If you're not satisfied with my tweets then don't follow me anymore. Simple.

Anyway, I was on the Net for quite a while and I found these gorgeous pictures taken by Lauren Withrow. She's such an amazing photographer and although she mostly takes pictures of herself, they're all so beautiful. You should really check her out.

Alright, I guess I shall stop blogging and get back to my Biology. Happy mugging to all muggers out there! :)

joyous cry

2009-11-04T16:17:00.003+08:00

When people tell you hardwork is the key to success, believe them and actually start working already. I'm so relieved that the Physical Geog paper's finally over. Doubly relieved and possibly over the moon that all the topics that I mugged my ass off for came out and I can finally say that an O level paper was easy.

Yes, the physical paper was easy as compared to the prelims. So easy I'm certain I'll get a B4 since nearly everyone share the same sentiments as me.

All that studying until 6.30am just now and more revising in school paid off! I was cranky that I didn't get any sleep at all yesterday since I started doing Geog since 7pm last night all the way till 6+ just now. Gotta thank my other Geography classmates Atiqah, Melody, Bernice and Amanda who called and asked questions and we revised together on the phone. They really made me so motivated to just keep going and not give up. Thank you! :)

And especially Amanda who actually called me at 2am+ and tweeted/facebooked with me all the way through morning, sending encouraging tweets and everything! I hope we can conquer this paper together everyone!

Two people commented on my eyebags/dark circles so that only means one thing: I NEED MORE SLEEP.

I know that O levels aren't over yet, but heck. I'm tired so I'm gonna sleep soon. Good luck for the rest of O levels! :)

a smile upon my face, impossible to erase. hardwork truly is the key to success!

day to day

2009-11-03T21:00:00.004+08:00

Freedom is nearing, this is what it feels like. With a crazy smile on my face, I can only hope but that's what keeps me going.